On this day, the fandom is filled with a happy atmosphere as RM and V returned on June 10 (KST) after 18 months of military service. The return of 4/7 members makes fans feel more clearly than ever that BTS's reunion is coming.

The last time all BTS members stood on stage together was in October 2022. During the 3 years that BTS was on hiatus to fulfill their military service, fans have shown a lot of love and nostalgia for the members.

Understanding what fans are expecting, both RM and V spent a lot of time meeting ARMYs all over the world online. On the evening of the same day, fans were delighted to see RM in a tiger-patterned casual outfit, looking cool and attractive.

He even raised a glαѕѕ with fans for this special day and said: "It's been so long since I've drank at house. I usually don't drink at house".

After drinking, it seemed easier for the BTS leader to open up about his feelings and tell fans about his time in the barracks. But this is also when fans realized how difficult the past 18 months were for him, both physically and mentally.

RM stunned ARMYs when he revealed his severe insomnia since enlisting: "Back in boot camp, people often told me to take care of Taehyung since I’m the older one, but honestly, Taehyung adjusted to daily military life better than I did. I thought he was really cool for that—I was even a little jealous, because I αѕѕumed I’d handle it well, but it turned out military life was pretty tough for me. Even basic training was hard, and the living conditions weren’t great—like, imagine 20 people living in one container with cramped sleeping spaces. Sleep was the hardest part. I’d feel sleepy but just couldn’t fall into a deep sleep.”

“Around April or May last year (2024), I had severe insomnia—to the point where I couldn’t sleep for 78 hours straight. I felt like a zombie. My mental state was unstable, so I went to see a psychiatrist and had to start taking sleeping pills. I would lie in bed for 3 to 4 hours, just staring at the ceiling, unable to sleep. I was тєяяιfιє∂ of nighttime. Every time I had a leave and came home, I’d just pαѕѕ out from exhaustion. The psychiatrist said it was because of the military environment and that things would gradually get better.

I’ve been going through therapy and taking sleep meds for a year and two months now. There were some side effects, so we had to change the medication. I still can’t stop taking them completely, but I’m doing better now. My fellow sol∂ιєrs are all aware of my situation—they’ve been incredibly supportive and understanding. Since April, I’ve been feeling much more stable mentally, probably because I know I’ll be discharged soon.

The insomnia started before RPWP was released—there was also a lot going on at HYBE around that time. Even now, I’m still afraid of the night. I still can’t sleep properly", he recounted. 

Contrary to the always bright image of RM that fans see on screen, the tears he shed as he recounted what he had to overcome made him more genuine than ever.

"During RPWP, I was also struggling. I think a lot of it was because I’m overly sensitive. Enlisting was very difficult for me, and I even got angry at myself for being that way—for being so affected by sleep and military life. I’ve been through worse things, but... yeah, I went through a really hard time”, he continued.

It was a relief that his condition had improved! But even when facing a difficult life, RM still has a positive attitude, saying: "I’m just really grateful that it’s all behind me now. Every pain has its reason, right? Everything happens for a reason. I always believe that.”

In a post on Weverse a few months before his discharge, RM mentioned his insomnia symptoms and expressed his desire to be like V by being able to sleep well in the army. He was even criticized for being said to be complaining or making a big deal out of it while the other members were still adapting well.

But those who criticized him or many fans could not imagine how serious it was until today, when he shared the details. There were times when RM really broke down, but with a strong heart, he overcame it.

Fans felt heartbroken for what he had to endure alone and sent many words of encouragement under the broadcast:

- I hope he knows he's perfect just the way he is :( my dear baby

- because he feels and thinks deeply, he's so strong I'm so proud of him

- My precious baby. He’ll always be strong but he should know that he’s human too and humans can sometimes be sensitive or feel weak

- not comparing their situations, just putting side by side how this situation changed each of them.

- I feel like my heart was just torn out my chest. I really hope he recovers from everything he’s been through and everything he’s going through

- thats why he gained 83 kilos; that explains. the side effect of sleep pills is weight gain. joonie, I love you. I love you forever, thank you for taking care of yourself by seeing a therapist.

- I feel so bad making light of how much he wanted to get out. He was literally suffering my poor Joon!

- Namjoon he truly did his best to endure and I'm proud of him. I feel so sorry that military is a requirement in SK, this is too much. If I were in his place I'd have the same issue too, I doubt he got into the details of how he was feeling mentally, but Im so glad he's okay now

- I hope he gets better he deserves the world:( my joonie